tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7239140084937897595.post3955689666194425292..comments2023-10-19T10:26:30.108-04:00Comments on Yin and Yang: WaitingUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7239140084937897595.post-77164506881838109612012-05-09T08:46:23.213-04:002012-05-09T08:46:23.213-04:00http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1m3dVYaZi5g
new s...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1m3dVYaZi5g<br /><br /> new song I made.....Maybe i will play a coffee house with you one day.............I would love that..Antique and good used furniture........https://www.blogger.com/profile/04187825434971485712noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7239140084937897595.post-30432416740286019582012-05-09T08:14:50.718-04:002012-05-09T08:14:50.718-04:00Hi Kate,
I'm like you, sensitive to what peop...Hi Kate,<br /><br />I'm like you, sensitive to what people think about me. Its something that sets us up to be hurt. I know, we are both people with big hearts, so why would someone want to be mean to us? But for us, perhaps indifference itself feels painful.<br /><br />I like you have recently put myself out there in the world for someone, made myself vulnerable. And I go back and forth between feeling proud that I take risks and feeling like a bit of a fool.<br /><br />Last week my therapist was reading to me from a book on Zen Buddhism. The book had the most astonishing perspective - when I repeated it to my husband he snorted like "that is ridiculous! Foolish! Absurd!" What the book said is that your life is none of your business. I know, it completely flys against Western ego centric notions. But I like it. I can live my life, take my risks, and how those risks fall, fail or succeed, is none of my business. What other people think about me is none of my business. Whether or not my paintings sell is none of my business. Of course I'm going to go back to my therapist this week and ask him "so what precisely does Zen Buddhism and this book say IS MY BUSINESS?"<br /><br />If I can say that some issues are out of my reach, out of my control, in the power of the Universe, then I guess that is saying these things are none of my business and I can get on with my life and suffer less regret and pain.<br /><br />It feels really perverse to say to myself "my life is none of my business" (I am so conditioned to be a busybody about myself - how do I look, smell, and accomplish) but it feels freeing too. Like giving up control to a higher power.<br /><br />I think that making an effort, putting things out there is part of the business of life, we are agents in creation of our lives, hey, thats the american way - but how our affairs turn out, it is better not to take things too personally. The bad and the good.<br /><br />I even go as far to think "my birth, it was none of my business" which is a wonder, are we are cosmic accidents on purpose!<br /><br />Anyway, the quote has me thinking about the nature of control and consequence. It at least has made me more wary as to the energy I focus on my ruminations. I rather make an emotional fuss about less and leave more just as it is.<br /><br />All my love,<br />KarenKaren May Sorensenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14436905322393073250noreply@blogger.com