I came back to my home in New York after staying with my father for two and a half weeks. I discovered quickly that one of my cats was dying, my oldest cat (15 years), Moocher. I've spent the last fours days and nights waiting for him to go and decided last night to have him euthanized this morning. I am both depressed and detached. All my cats have been and are great, but Moocher had been with me since almost the beginning of my acute psychosis all the way through into my recovery. He was a wonderful, little being, full of energy, affection and playfulness, not just with me, but with all the other cats. I will miss him. He was a great friend. May you be well wherever you are now my Moocher.
A Recovery Blog
This blog is about my continuing recovery from severe mental illness. I celebrate this recovery by continuing to write, by sharing my music and artwork and by exploring Buddhist ideas and concepts. I claim that the yin/yang symbol is representative of all of us because I have found that even in the midst of acute psychosis there is still sense, method and even a kind of balance. We are more resilient than we think. We can cross beyond the edge of the sane world and return to tell the tale. A deeper kind of balance takes hold when we get honest, when we reach out for help, when we tell our stories.