"I have an innate ability to heal and to grow. I don't need to force myself to change. All I have to do is to show up and be willing. When I am ready, the changes will come easily."
Courage To Change, October 24
My way, in my sickness, is to force change, to go too quickly. I am learning that so much of healing comes from relaxing. A lot of the 12 Step slogans are about this: "Easy does it.", "Let Go And Let God.", "Live and Let Live.", "One Day At A Time." So I show up for my life and stay open, willing to learn and honest in my approach. I allow time to just be, to listen and look for moments of insight and intuition. I know that can't be forced. Change comes whether I force it or not; now I put the focus on how change comes to me. I seek peace in my life and instead of resisting the flow of life, I go with it. I train myself to go with it every time I relax.
A Recovery Blog
This blog is about my continuing recovery from severe mental illness. I celebrate this recovery by continuing to write, by sharing my music and artwork and by exploring Buddhist ideas and concepts. I claim that the yin/yang symbol is representative of all of us because I have found that even in the midst of acute psychosis there is still sense, method and even a kind of balance. We are more resilient than we think. We can cross beyond the edge of the sane world and return to tell the tale. A deeper kind of balance takes hold when we get honest, when we reach out for help, when we tell our stories.