"Too often we lose our way by forgetting that we are part of a community, a society, a world. When we were in our addiction, we closed ourselves off from others and drifted along alone."
Answers In The Heart, January 16
Social anorexia, or depriving oneself of human contact, is an addiction. I have been practicing this addiction for so long that I lose sight that it is an addiction. It has become "normal" but it is not healthy for me. I have hurt myself over the decades by withdrawing from community, society, the world.
I recently discovered another 12 Step group called Adult Children of Alcoholics/Dysfunctional Families or ACA. So many people showed up for this group identifying with the 14 traits, or what the group calls "The Laundry List", who did not have drug using parents or caretakers. ACA, as a group, decided to include anyone coming from a dysfunctional home.
I come from a dysfunctional home where my parents did not abuse drugs or alcohol. Yesterday I went over the 14 traits and I found myself answering yes to all of them, if not in the present, then in my past. I am an adult child. I've used the label for myself over many years and I have used the label for my brother, who was also so affected by the way he was brought up by our parents. My addiction to isolation stems from my experiences as a child.
I have come to believe in the reality that there are many, many groups of recovering people all over the world. I make a daily commitment to join those people when I call my sponsor, join a meeting, read support books and listen to support audio.
My daily call:
The Inspiration Line: 215-574-2120
My weekly call:
The Inspirational Story Line: 215-574-2121
A Recovery Blog
This blog is about my continuing recovery from severe mental illness. I celebrate this recovery by continuing to write, by sharing my music and artwork and by exploring Buddhist ideas and concepts. I claim that the yin/yang symbol is representative of all of us because I have found that even in the midst of acute psychosis there is still sense, method and even a kind of balance. We are more resilient than we think. We can cross beyond the edge of the sane world and return to tell the tale. A deeper kind of balance takes hold when we get honest, when we reach out for help, when we tell our stories.